Running Free

So I've finally seen it again.  Happiness.  I grew the nerve and the will to fix all of my mistakes, and right now, I've found for the first time in my life to have no regrets.  I've found that the one thing holding me back is the remorse that I hold for my mistakes, so I'm done with it.  This summer, I've made a goal for myself: I'm going to get as many friends as possible, and not the fake friends that are pretty much transparent in your life, but real friends that I talk to and share with, and I'm finally going to open up.  I think this may be the best decision of my life, because I'm finally going to make sure I'm not a ball of rage and hate that I've held inside for years now.  I'm going to take a grip of my own life and take myself where I want to be.  I hope that I can inspire just one person maybe in the same place that I was, to see the revelation I did, so that they can find happiness.  Cause in the end, it really just is as simple as that.  White balloons to the sky of doom, take me away

The new beginning

I can't lie, I fuck up a lot in life.  If anything can go wrong, I'll bombshell it and make sure you never expect it.  With a guilty conscience with it, it's not a very fun lifestyle.  To anyone who happens to read this, remember, mistakes happen.  Right now, I'm trying to go back and fix the mistakes I've caused in my life, and forgive the ones made to me.  It's never too late.  The people you come back to, that you fix your wrongs, and the ones that you forgive, and don't hold it against them, they usually turn out to be your best friends.  This is for the hurt and the problematic, the ones who want to do nothing but fix, but fall short.  Go out there and do it, don't think too much, just get over the pride and the fear and heal the pain.  Hold your white balloons to this sky of doom, fight the doomsday to one day find happiness again.

Anthony out

People

So, I'm finally going to actually add a post to the blog I created. The idea never left, but commitment and thoughts don't always come to me consistently. Today, I've been thinking a lot about people of the world. Particularly people stumbling around on the internet and finding this. I guess the point I'm trying to get at is that whatever force and god you believe in, we're given this one life and all the choices and decisions that come with it. I don't think anyone can truly say that they are completely satisfied with the world. If you can, I suggest walking outside or watching the news. I guess one of the goals I have with this blog is to inspire people. Inspire you to stand up for what you believe in, to go against the norm, to fight the current instead of going with the flow. I want to inspire you to take charge of the world we live on and make it a better place. Global warming? I personally believe it's kinda bullcrap and that the world is going to get warmer on its own anyways. But I do think the amount of pollution we have can be a bit ridiculous. If you agree with this: do something about it! If you want to try to stop war, by all means do what you can. A lot of the things in our world today are stupid, and I don't think many of us know why we even do the stupid things we do. Insults being traded down hallways; when did it become so acceptable? I'm not saying I don't do it, but I would like to break the habit and figure out why so many persist to do it.

Another little segment I wanted to do today, on the same general subject, was to not only stand up for what you believe in, but to overall make the most of your life. Don't spend so much time thinking about the future that you forget about the present. I'm being a little hypocritical about this, as many of my friends tell me that I need to have more fun in my life, but I don't want people wasting away their lives with stupid things they'll regret when they realize it wasn't worth it. Two of my classmates died earlier this year after they went for a joyride. I'm using this as an example to try to show my point that you should get up and have fun in your life, and make the most of what you have, but also take into consideration the risks of everything. A few of my friends got crazy drunk at one of their houses, and they ended up being caught later; they still told me it was well worth it. Personally, I hate alcohol with a burning passion so I won't be doing that, because it puts us on that fine line between reckless and fun. It's dangerous to do stuff like that, even though people may not realize how much it really is. I see drinking on the reckless side, but other people might not. If you're on the side that says no, then I'm going to at least suggest you actually wait until it's legal. There's an age limit for a reason, and until then please just spend your time doing some other crazy thing, like building a giant snow slide off you're roof; dangerous, but sounding very, very fun. This is the end to my second post, and I hope you'll all take a few things from this with you. Anthony out.

The Begining

Hello. My name is Anthony Rapp. Not famous, broadway Anthony, but an average teenager with a laptop. To tell you a little bit about myself, I think the most prominent is that I'm a music man. I breathe scales, it's just what I do. I'm also a very open-minded person. I've put up with a lot of shit, although not nearly as much as I've seen some other people. I'm not saying anyone should feel sorry for me, sometimes I think that what I went through is for the better. I would actually prefer you didn't. I'm writing this because I want to change for the better. Myself and the world. I invite people to respond to any posts they might find, to contribute their own ideas. This is the start of a revolution. A revolution to make the human population better. Who's with me?